How do I celebrate a day that recognizes love when my heart is broken? Well its tough but its been possible. I think about the wonderful husband that God gave me. That he allowed this man to look past my faults (although there are not many, hehe) & love me with incredible passion. Andy can make me feel like the most beautiful woman in the world. He is very affectionate. God knows I need someone like him as a husband so that I can learn to express my love & not care who knows it. I also think about the blessing of my baby boy, Kai. God knew that we would him and his sweet disposition in these trying months. He has been a comforting reminder that love is still around me. That although a piece of my heart is missing, a huge piece is wrapped up in Kai's smile. I think about my mom. A mother's love is unconditional. She loved me when I know I was a hard person to love (way back to those teenage years and maybe a few beyond :) God has surrounded me with loving friends & family. This has never been more evident than in the past 6 weeks. Their kindness and love have at times lifted me out of the pit. But again the question still remains, how can I possible celebrate love with a broken heart? GOD. I know God, my Heavenly Father loves me. As much as my earthly father loved me (and I know that was alot) it doesn't even compare to the love God has for me. Have you thought about how much God loves you? Its very easy to take the simple things, simple joys/pleasures in life for granted. We may even get to a point where we expect these things but what if you didn't have them. Take time to recognize your blessings. I know I need to. What's the greatest expresssion of love that God gave every one of us? Jesus. The great I AM loves us all so much that He gave His one and only Son. Now thats love. True love. God knew I would need a passionate & supportive husband. God knew I would need a son to comfort me. God knew that my mom would be my greatest earthly stronghold of faith & I would need that faith to help me. God knew that one day my dad would leave this earth & I would need all of these thing that He has supplied me with. Why? Because He loves me that much. He made sure I would have the love I needed for these tough days. In the book Crazy Love a elderly lady is quoted saying "I love love." Do I love love? Do I express God's love through my actions, my words, my thoughts. Sadly no, not always. Do you? God is love. He even wrote us love letters. In those letters He never promised me an easy life althoug He does promise to walk beside me. To hold me. To carry me. To love me. During this painful time in my life it is sometimes hard for me to feel God's love. But that is just a feeling. What I feel and what I know are 2 different things. Remember that God does love you. He cares deeply for all of us. No matter what we've done, what we've said or what we've thought God's love remains unconditional. So on this day of love I hope that I will remember to love my neighbor as myself b/c God sure does.
Because Your love is better than life, my lips will glorify You. Psalm 63:3.
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